Insecurity

Painting by Sheryl

Some people say they have no talent. I believe God has given everyone a talent. It could be you are an encourager...a helper...a listener...a speaker. It may not be a talent that is visible..but it is a still a talent.

God has given me an artistic talent. It can be seen by others.

But I can be so insecure about sharing it with others. No...that is not it. I like showing it. I like to share with my friends and family. I give so much away. What I am insecure about is selling myself. Everyone says I could make money selling my things. But that is so hard for me to do.

I know I am afraid of success. If I put myself out there I would have to find out about laws..copywrite..taxes....income...I would have to decide how much to charge....I would have put a price on what I can do...I may get busy and not have time to be lazy.

I am like the story in the Bible........3 men were given talents (money) by the master. The first one took his talent and made more. The second did too. But the 3rd one he buried his talent and that is all he had to give back to the master. He was in trouble for not doing more.

That's me....bury my talent.

I am reminded of the song...hide your light under a bush..OH NO..I'm gonna let it shine. Only, I do like to hide my light under the bush....when it comes to making money for what I can do. I steer away from that. I hide from that.

When I do know what I want to charge for something it comes out of my mouth at a lower price. I know I do good work. But....I hide from success. I run away. I say no. I look for reasons why I can't.

....................And Then I Am Relieved.